Quite Consistent

Perhap..in progress to sharp my english rapidly..
i'm truly tried hard to understand, comprehend and repeated a new words, pronouncation..
but for lately..
I'm looks like so engrossed for a while..
Due to a lot of work to do at the workplace..
Many programmes and activities needed me to cover..

Ohhh.. how come..
I should realize that my time very limited..
But i still cannot study ..
Perhap..
So tired..
My back pain problem is return..
It very painful...
It cames to centre..
Led me down totally..

Comes so..so..so..lazy..
I already miss for about 2 weeeks..
God..pray for you...
Give me the strength..
Spiritual..
Presistent felt...
Determination mode..
To make me so eager to get it..
Ethusiasm in study for this..
Only this one ..for the last chance for me..

Ya Ilahi..
Please..looking your help to assit and reminds me back ...
AMIN....

TIMESSS +HEART..no sufficient & spacessss

Sometimes...If felt so consistent..
Felt our routine everyday looks good and balance..
However..still there are some thing MISSSING..why..
Try to avoid it
Those have been happened even try to escape it...
Ya Allah..
Felt so messy ..so terrible so constrain
I need to attain the result but i dont have sufficient times to focus on this manner..
I want..I really hope that i can capture it by myself...
Ya Allah.. give me the strength..
to treat my mind..
to remedy my heart..
my soul tooo...

Give me a spiritual with determination and persistance with humble
to face whatever happen to me
sound like there are a lot of thing need to do..
needed to consider
suddenly felt a pain in deep in heart due of some reason too..
The Sadness ...
i really not sure..
Can I do it.
Can I face it..
Can I being strong for it...
YA ALLAH..
By Your Guidance..I believe that i can pass it..
Please....

Suddenly... i felt so empty and lonely

Oh my God...
suddenly.. i flet so lonely...so sad..
May be i know that all my lovely children already gone ..
They followed their parents to Johor BhARUU..
i FELT SO 222 SAD
Suddenly i realized it...
They not my children..
They'are my nephews and
lovely nieces..
They're not belongs to me..
They cannot always with me..

Oh.. I really felt terrible..
Due i'm a woman..
my heart as a mother intuition..
Ya Ilahi...
Please..please give me a strength to face this situation..
I felt miss him..GEBABBB..
my lovely and clever boy...
I already with him almost a year ...
Now i will lost him...
He not mine...
This word like a blade ..
cut my heart into a pieces..

At the same time..
I got a few bad news..
Something unexpected..
Oh... Time and Time..
If You said a time for sadness...
It's came like the torpedo..
GOd ..my Lord Ya Allah..
I really felt so weak..
So down...
Please assist me ...

i'm try an try...

Syukran Ya Ilahi...
Till now.. i can breath ..i still alive..i still can see the world..
Oh my God Ya Ilahi...
Right now...i'm really struggling...to improve it..
to amend it..
to enhance it...
To be better and better....
Please guide and assist me Dear Allah...
You're care, forgiveness and tenderness to all your servants
Hoping a miracle...
Always seeking your forgiveness..
Give me a strength..an ideas ...generate the ability in deep of my heart
to handle the matter very well and properly...
To be concentrate, focus and alert of it...
hope my achievement give benefit to all not only me with Your Protection, Assist and Guidance
Ya Ilahi...The Creator and The Originator
I always deems that anything happen to me because of You..
Without Your guide and protection..
i'm surely not to be what i'm today,
I'mvery glad to be your servants

Ya Allah...the Exalted in Might, The Wise

Al Rahman
The Compassionate, The Beneficient, who has plenty of mercy for the believers and the blashphemers in the world especially for those the believers in the hereafter.

Al Raheem
The Merciful, the one who has plenty of mercy for the believers.

Al Malik
The King, The Sovereign lord, who the One with complete dominion, the One Whose Dominion is clear from imperfection

Al Quddoos
The Holy, the One is pure from any imperfection and clear from children and adversaries

As Salaam
The Source of Peace, the One who are free from every imperfection

Beyonds to Time..Practice make perfect InsyaAllah...

Alhamdullilah Praise to you Allah..
You are the most greatest in the world who know every single things
every single matters
every single events
Its YOUR right...

My faith and fate by You..
Needed you Help
You guard
in every single step i do..
Praise to you Allah..
Give me a strength
Give me a good sign
Give me ideas
Give me Intelectual
To handle in every problem with humbled to you...

I try to be better but not forget who am i
always remember who am i
always reminds myself to be more humble and humble...
always be polite and kindness with your guardance..
Dear my God ( Allah)...
Help me in order to improve my weakness
Assist me in order to enhance my ability
With YOU Allah...
With YOU Allah...
AMIN

No ideasssss...

Allahuakbar...
Ya Tuhanku..Ku pohon padaMu Ilahi..
Lindungi daku, Keluargaku dan sahabat222 dari sebarang malapetaka
Dari sebarang Penganiayaan
Dari sebarang masalah..

Tuhan..
padaMu jua daku bermohon
Agar...Dipermudahkan segala urusan
Kau lembutkan hati22 yang keras
sejukkan jiwa yang membara
satukan hati -hati yang itu
supaya utuh dan kekal hingga akhirnya
supaya tiada penyesalan di akhirnya
supaya tiada kelukaan di akhirnya..

Tuhan..
padaMu jua tempat hambaMu meminta dan mengadu..
Lindungi hati-hati hambamu..
dari godaan Syaitan laknatullah...
lindungi mereka dari hasutan Syaitan laknatullah..
Sedarlah hati-hati mereka..
sedarlah mereka dengan PetunjukMu dan InayahMu
Ya Ilahi..

Bantulah hambaMu ini..
Berikan daku petunjuk dan bantuan dalam menyelesaikan
masalah dan kekusutan ini...
Allahuakbar..
PadaMu tempatku berserah dan berharap
Ya Ilahi

OCTOBER222222--DILEMAAAAAASSSS

Bulan lalu.. seronok2222 + Sadisssss
Bulan nie otak serabut222 sgt..
Biasalah.. adat kehidupan..
Klo bo dikatakan dpt berfikir ngan baik dan positif tapi
tidak utk bulan ini
keran hati sungguh dalam keadaan dilema...
Last month gie interview utk dptkan biasiswa..
Sungguh tidak disangka ..Alhamdullillah.. dapat tawaran untuk sambung blaja
Tapi hati terasa berat.. perasaan bercampur baur
Ade perasaan excited +sedih + Sayu ..
tiba-tiba byk yg perlu difikirkan...
Pelbagai alasan cuba dbuat utk mengelakkannya...
Sampai kadangkala mendiamkan diri adalah yang terbaik
tapi..
perkara itu masih berlegar-legar dalam fikiran ini...
sampaikan sukar untuk melelapkan mata sejak kebelakangan ini..
sukar untuk membuat keputusan yang terbaik
Masih tidak dapat keputusannnya...
Terasa sukar sangat kerana
ia melibatkan tempoh masa yang sangat lama..
ada perkara yang masih tidak dapat dilangsaikan ..
Ya Allah.. Bantu hambamu Ya Allah..
PErmudahkan segalanya Ya Allah..
Mengharapkan Petunjuk dan HidayaH dari MU
Moga keputusan ini adalah yang terbaik buatku
Tiada penyesalan di kemudian hari
Ku fikirkan keadaan Ibuku yang kian lanjut usianya
Ku fikirkan keadaan diriku yang masih keseorangan
Ku fikirkan keluargaku kelak kiranya aku tiada..
Oh.. DILEMANYA..